It only Hurts

19-July-2020 11:35PM

It hurts, it hurts so much, it hurts too much.

Every breath i take, it hurts.

Every time i blink my eyes, it hurts.

Every moment, every second, it just hurts.

It quite impossible to not notice the pain i am going through.

Her memories are damn strong than the reality.

Time spent with her is so strong that it's not allowing me to spend time in present.

I m fcuking messed up. All roads looks to me like zigzag hell.

Running water looks to me like it still since forever.

My heart has no feelings left, my brain has no sense left,My nerves have no motions left, my flowing blood stream is screaming.

Everything is ended. This body has a dead soul in it. My soul is trying to find the exit gate. It's getting frustrated inside this body. This soul needs peace, a white light, a bright white light of hope and freedom.

This soul is tired of being in darkness.

It's almost over and it almost ended.

It ended when she said goodbye and requested a last kiss and hug from my soul.

I denied, i denied in fear of loosing her forever.

I denied because this soul cant live forever without her.

I am sorry for every bad time i gave you.i am sorry for every tear i gave you. I am sorry my love , i am sorry.